Marie

My journey started 3 years ago. I was frustrated with myself for having no control over food and not being able to stick to my workouts. I was the person who would train 6 days a week, eat properly for weeks and then boom– eat junk for a couple days. I would then go back to being a “good girl” again for another couple weeks. It was an endless cycle.

I have tried a lot of diets and reached my goal weight and then gained the weight back as my Helga would tell me to reward myself since I was so good. Without even noticing I would be right back where I started with too much weight.

I signed up with Nichole’s program and followed the checklist religiously. This is when Nichole said I didn’t need to be perfect with the program. If I missed something, I wouldn’t go crazy about it. At the beginning, I felt like I wasn’t changing, nothing was very different. But as I went through the program, I started noticing changes: the way I was reacting to my body, the way I was seeing food, the way I was processing my stress and emotions.

I have learned that I didn’t have extra weight, but I had extra stress on my body showing up as pounds. That my body was like a sponge, she was retaining all the stress. I had to learn that I needed to spend more time taking care of her and not only by getting massages or reading a book, but by also listening to her.

Recently I started to ask her the day after a binge eating episode, what was going on that made me eat like this. Sometimes I get an answer, sometimes I don’t. I am at a place that I am accepting my body the way she is. Would it be nice to be thinner and more toned? Yes it would be. I am ok with how she looks, if her ideal weight is where I am, then so be it. I am at my healthiest that I have ever been.

Wondering about food, I found out through the program that food doesn’t control me. Food is only food. I am the one that was using food to deal with my emotions, my stress. Now instead of getting upset with eating too much of this or that, I reflect on what was going on around me and I move on.

Overall my journey was slow and it seems like nothing was changing, but amazingly enough, I am a different woman who now loves her body and is at peace with food.